Pit, Potiphar, Prison, Praise

(Photo: On the road to Sejong, South Korea)

I have been struggle-busing a lot lately. The time-consuming tasks at work, the day-in-day-out confrontations that drain my energy, the endless chores, the inability to get true rest, some personal matters that are weighing heavy on my heart – it’s all adding up to make a grumpy Ali who is finding it difficult to get up and get to work every day. 

Maybe it’s seasonal depression, maybe it’s because it’s eight months into the school year and we’re all sick of each other, maybe it’s Maybelline. 

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Lose All

(Photo: Gongju Gongsanseong Fortress)

“Ms. O’Leary, we lose all!”

It’s one of my favorite memories of my students in Malaysia. My friend Shelby was leading a group of her students back to class after one of their basketball games and one of them saw me coming down the hallway across the courtyard. He had the biggest, happiest grin on his face as he announced his team’s failure.

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Thoughts in a Lent Season

(Photo from my hike on Gyejoksan Trail (계족산 황톳길) a few days ago)

Lent always sneaks up on me. I knew it was coming up soon and so I looked it up the other day and saw to my surprise that it had already started. With a sinking heart, I started berating myself that I’m such a bad Christian, that I can’t even keep up with one of the more important Christian seasons, followed quickly by the thought that, “Well, it’s too late to do anything now, so why bother?”

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Teach Them How to Say Goodbye

“It’s like they were building you a little shrine, even though you’re still alive,” my friend commented in the aftermath of my telling 2nd grade that I was leaving the school. 

And it really was – I’ve never said goodbye to so many little people at once and their reactions were so heartbreakingly touching. 2nd grade took it upon themselves to start giving me whatever precious treasures they happened to have on hand. This included half-finished bags of candy, a handful of crunchy noodles, some stickers, a piece of cardboard with a drawing on it, and a rock. 

They were just one of the eight classes I visited to tell them that I was leaving Malaysia. And then there was the aftermath of the middle schoolers finding out and forming a circle around me as they chanted “Don’t leave!” – one girl asking, “What in the summoning circle?” while another responded, “We are casting a spell so that she can’t leave!”

Have you ever said goodbye to 100+ students in one day? It is exhausting – I think I went to bed at 8:30 that night. 

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Delight 16: Introversion vs. Isolation

Some people are surprised to find out that I’m an introvert. And granted, I’m a little surprised at how much I’ve changed too.

I used to be much more outwardly visible as an introvert – didn’t speak up much, was shy around strangers, vanished at parties after a while.

Lately, I’m much more likely to speak up and meet new people (though inwardly a lot of the time I’m still cringing about how much I don’t like doing these kinds of things). But honestly, I am getting better at it. I’m not quite the awkward turtleduck in conversation that I used to be – I even, dare I say it, enjoy it sometimes?

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Delight 15: “Noise”

Stray Kids brew up a storm in Thunderous new music video [WATCH]

Warning: Nerd Post Alert.

With that out of the way, to no one’s great surprise, I love music (I mean, don’t we all love some form of music?). But more than that, I like “noisy” music. And I like learning about the writing/producing process behind albums.

So you can imagine my delight when my favorite kpop group, Stray Kids (yes, they’ve replaced BTS), came out with a new album named Noi(ea)sy. Even better when I found out they made it as a response to criticism that their music was “noise.”

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Delight 13: Scarcity

It tastes like lizard 🦎😂”... | Supernatural, Supernatural bloopers,  Supernatural funny
Image from Supernatural, taken from here.

I don’t why I always end up circling back to food when I write, but I do.

I really love food and it is one of my great delights to try lots of new foods. I can’t always say that these ventures are successful – sometimes I end up like Dean Winchester in the image above where a lizard is a lizard and cannot be improved upon – but I will at least try everything once. If I don’t like it, sorry, I probably won’t eat it again.

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